A New Year’s Drive

The beginning of this year marks 'My Driving',

Be in full control to steer the wheel

Today I’ll keep my field of vision straight

Focus more on which path to take

All geared up with my re-energize engines ready

Lessons from past is my key to ignition

As Enthusiasm heats, I’m in for combustion

For this year, yes to intuition no more superstition

Yesteryears took me to crossroads,

Detour taken had placed me in deceleration

No matter what adverse condition this coming voyage be

Still I’ll be taking chances, continue what I’ve started

Fueled by ton tanks of courage,

Seeing the world anew in a positively rearview,

Overtake on everyone’s frustrating shadow

Leaving manipulating critics on the back view

Stronger than I was before

Still keeping my humble feet on the floor

Today I’ll start to patiently rein the road

Having myself in full control

To relive a life I had dream

And continue the driving

Keeping faith on God’s trail sign guiding

Soon you’ll see my Lamborghini parking

©copyrighted by: Jelyn Piad(Jhelchemy)2015 

My Mind Is Boggled

Photo credits to Yahoo Images: old.alkemica.net

My mind is boggled

Difficult to understand

It desires everything

Makes me hard to choose one

My mind is boggled

It contests with the heart

A cut-throat that controls over

Now, I can’t decide right

My mind is boggled

A pain in the ass

It thinks of worries

How can I make it stop?

My mind is a boggled

So hard to please

A maze of confusion

You had me totally bleed

My mind is boggled

It’s driving me mad

Half positive, half negative

Nah! They weigh alike

My mind is boggled

Ranting with words

More to scold, more to dictate

I’m completely plague

My mind is boggled

Critically, it’s overloaded

Any moment it may explode,

Might as well, I, drastically, explode too.


©copyrighted by Jelyn Piad(Jhelchemy)2014

The Verdict

My hands are cold and my heart is pounding wild,

Like a total hysteria running through my mind.
Knees shakes as this scares the life out of me.

I had it all done but it's not me for the final say.

To wait is the hardest still I should obey.

Pressures on leveling rise,
Tomorrow or the next more 'morrows,

I will soon learn the prize.

Did I make it or break it?

What will they going to declare?

Win it, then my future would be bright...
Lose it, congrats for I'll be the great crack!

Damn! I couldn't stand a restart.
If that is, I be getting myself into suicide.
Everyone's piercing eyes on me now,
With their mocking brows lifted high.
Today's emotion all mixed up.
Hope I wake up in this long nap.
Time is running so fast.
This weight of waiting is driving me mad,
Leaving me each day an insomniac.
Did I make it good or not?

I really can't recognize.
God, please, don't leave me on this sad flight.
May your will always be done.
Future's unclear, days drawing near;
Soon the judgement will be proclaim...

Will it be the end of my game?

©copyrighted by: Jelyn Piad (Jhelchemy) 2014

Captive

Enslaved by the past and now tortured,

Tortured by the truth of the present

Present that seems to scorn

Scorn in a way of keeping stationary

Stationary still which kills me in vain

Vain of waiting for a future progress

Progress that leads to frustration

Frustration that roped me to madness

Madness that locked me to depression

Depression of being hopeless

Hopeless from unenviable mishaps

Mishaps that despaired me to question

Question of “whys?” and a lot more whys…

Why I am still stranded?

Stranded to nowhere…

Nowhere can I be fitted to a chance?

Chance to the best I deserve?

Deserve, for I have been struggling long enough

Enough! It should be enough because I've done a lot!

Lot of sacrifices, lot of battling, a lot of my best…

Best of standing strong, but guess I’m tired,

Tired of trying, of fighting and of chasing…

Chasing for a trance I can’t seemed to reach.

Reach? How can I when I’m stuck?

Stuck in this chains of ill fate

Fate that smother me tightly

Tightly that I couldn't breathe,

Breathe from suffocation in this air of uncertainties

Uncertainties as to when to surpass

Surpass this merciless prison

Prison I wanted to escape.

Escape to break me free from this curse

Curse of being captive in misery.


©copyrighted by Jelyn Piad(Jhelchemy)2014 

Regret

Created: April 12, 2009

Today, I found myself in gloom.
Sitting on a couch flooding with tears,
Trying to soothe myself and telling I'm gonna be okay.
Reminiscing shadow of yesterdays that I can't get over still.

Days... months...years have gone.
I let it passed by, I just let it fly bye.
Now I am in distress for having those times missed. 
Alas! I can't brought it back.

Its past! Its history!
But why the hell I can't leave it all buried? 
It keeps on haunting me and pierce me inside
And made me realize how I made my life so wasted. 

I regret for having my life a lonely one,
How I lived it was boring, such a non-sense!
I play safe, I fear and I hesitate
Poor little me, I'm a weakling!

I hate life for being so rude on me.
I hate those people who made my life unworthy
I hate those who criticized, envied and mocked me
I hate life for being so unfair!

I feel like I'm a mess,
Insecurities got me poisoned
It almost kill me, and perhaps,
Moving on is the only ANTIDOTE.


©copyrighted by Jelyn Piad(Jhelchemy)2014

Quest For The Real Me

Created March 27, 2009:

Acknowledgement to Yahoo Images from where this picture taken from.

Day by day in my life, 

As always...

I am always used to prove myself.

Prove my worth, my real persona & my existence.

I am used to prove them wrong.

Prove them that I am not the person they think I am;

Prove them that I was really this and not that;
That just like any other, I also does this and that;

Prove them I can make it;

Prove them that I am also human;

Prove them I am no " mutant",neither an alien,nor a fiction.

I am here!

I am real.

I exist. 

Yes, I really do!

If you would only open your hearts,

If you would only broaden your mind, keeping it open.

Never limit yourself, peel whatever you could peel.

Try to reach me out, feel me!

Don't be contented on what you see, feel and think about me.

First impression never last, I tell you that.
Know me well before you laid your verdict!
Only then you will see the REAL ME!

©copyrighted by Jelyn Piad(Jhelchemy)2014