Regret

Created: April 12, 2009

Today, I found myself in gloom.
Sitting on a couch flooding with tears,
Trying to soothe myself and telling I'm gonna be okay.
Reminiscing shadow of yesterdays that I can't get over still.

Days... months...years have gone.
I let it passed by, I just let it fly bye.
Now I am in distress for having those times missed. 
Alas! I can't brought it back.

Its past! Its history!
But why the hell I can't leave it all buried? 
It keeps on haunting me and pierce me inside
And made me realize how I made my life so wasted. 

I regret for having my life a lonely one,
How I lived it was boring, such a non-sense!
I play safe, I fear and I hesitate
Poor little me, I'm a weakling!

I hate life for being so rude on me.
I hate those people who made my life unworthy
I hate those who criticized, envied and mocked me
I hate life for being so unfair!

I feel like I'm a mess,
Insecurities got me poisoned
It almost kill me, and perhaps,
Moving on is the only ANTIDOTE.


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